One day I'll fly away. .

Sometimes I wonder about the validity of life. It seems like if you get excited about the world, have dreams and ambitions, then you are sure to die before you achieve what it is you breath for. .or if you just want to live, have that drive, you are doomed. . Makes me wonder what the point in being excited about anything is. .what the point of being alive is. .why go through needless suffering like that. . I wonder if these thoughts are terribly unusual or if I have just experienced so much loss from such a young age that I am unable to see a different way in the world. . I almost feel that if I don't live. .don't try, then maybe I will have a shot and not losing the people I love. . I know it is impossible, but, god, I am so scared of losing anyone else I love. . I don't know how I would recover from one more loss. .