Love is a sin

I just want to die. There is no truth in this world. . no real truth, only pain and misfortune. . it is so pointless, so ridiculous. You love someone and then their gone, or you love someone and they are incapible of loving you back. Even when they say they love you, there is no real reassurances, only in their actions, and their actions prove that their words lie. So love is pointless, life is pointless, death is pointless, so what is there to do?!? I just wish it was all over, or it never happened, or that this was all a cruel dream and i no longer existed. . I just want it all to be gone, to be over, to stop, end. . It hurts too much!! I am so tired of crying, of hurting, of thinking i am loved only to be proved undeniably wrong. . god, if there is a god, i just want it to end. . There is no point, no beginning, no nothing. . it wont matter in a month, in a year. In any amount of time. . Ever. I wont do it my self so just strike me down by lightning, have a bus hit me. . im probably going to die of cancer anyways, like most of my generation. We are all already doomed. . just end this shit now, cause i cant take it much longer.. I am so tired of hurting, of dying, of being murdered by this pain. . my nightmares are never ending.. please just take them all away. I don't want to feel anything any more. None of it matters in the least. Just make it all be gone. . please.